as i promised entries from the birthday bash on the 11th of march 2011.
zaireel has become quite close to me nowadays eversince that fateful night bump at O. thus,he invited me over to the party for sha's and yan's bday bash! a part of 10 had a total of 2 henesseys, 1 champagne, 2 jagerbombs each, 1 The Macallan 12 years and a loadful of shots. to my surprise,i wasn't drunk in the club but in the cab,going back home. where i had to find tebanboy's motor (thankfuckinggod for shafa) to place coupons since he left his bike to let me check on it.

the rest of the pictures are on facebook unless you are NOT GIVEN THE right to see. (:

that morning, i helped out at CEDAR GIRLS for their makeup for their competition of Sayembara Cerpen at NYJC, together with faat and diyana. i really wished miza was there cause.... im not sure why laaa.. anyways,it was a great experience and i truly enjoyed the whole thing even though AKU BENCI BANGUN PAGI2 KUL 730PAGI!

the week went well with me meeting up with tebanboy almost everyday except wednesday and today. wednesday i met up with shah, faz and ainur for dinner and shortly more of the clan came over to chill. friday and saturday slowly came and passed me by. it was an OK weekend. sunday made it all great. we went out to buy kain at arab street and joo chiat to eat as well.i've got about 3 tops,1 tube dress and 2 bottoms and 2 kain. thank you mama! makan was sedap. duck porridge okay!
(let me insert here about tebanboy. on saturday he sent me home about 3am and we talked at my house multipurpose hall. we normally sit down and talk for awhile before he goes off. well,he is slowly opening up to me,about his life,his family, his past and everything else. i love moments likethis cause it makes me feel as if im a part of his life now. and it makes me feel that he trusts me with himself. when he told me about his late mom,i shed a few tears. it was very heartfelt and i was imagining if that happened to me,i wouldn't have much of his courage to do all that.especially at a young age. well,he said to me many times and again over the phone just now, "you are very lucky and beruntong.learn to appreciate things like this". well,i am learning to appreciate.slowly but surely.insya'allah.")

you know what,i really miss laughing my ass off with friends. i don't know but this clan has two separate parts. like kompuak2 likethat.i really hate it. where there's a distinct division between them.
well,nothing's new when i found myself talking to the boys and the girls ignoring me.i nearly broke down cause i felt left out with the girls. NEARLY.thank god for ba,shah,tebanboy and others that helped me see that i didn't need them. and most of them keep comforting me,making me feel better.alaaa enough of politics already. i just miss laughing randomly with my boys.with my girls.why couldn't i be that girl again that laughs out so hard from within?what happen?

school needs a very strong push right now.just ended my quiz and i've gotten a 13/15 for it. alhamdullilah. (:

i want to say this right now.im in a phase where i feel fat and ugly about my looks and body.everyone is making me feel fucking insecure. tebanboy especially. honestly,i feel like shouting at his face and maki "fuck you" for saying or calling me "mok" or whatever nicknames he has.memang la macam manja2,cute2 and main2 je. BUT THIS ONE I CANNOT TAKE IT. FIRST TIME AKU TAK SUKE OKAY. DULU AKU OKAYGO. THIS FEBRUARY AND MARCH AKU DA TAKBOLEH ANGKAT GURAU TU. tak mengamok la.cumer terguris hati.so from tomorrow onwards no food after 9pm and less rice.don't forget jogging as well. i want to be back on track of 45kg.now im a heavy 50kg. insya'allah.

okay going to sleep. YA ALLAH,please let me meet mister right soon. amin.