this picture taken at taman warisan.
sunday,after the shooting i chilled with miza.it's been a long time since i chilled with her alone.we talked and just eating away the pikin i bought.thank you miza for walking with me to the mrt.sayang kau!

im having runny nose and sorethroat.i hope it won't come down to a fever though.im having tuition later,so what's new about it.
im going to clean up my wardrobe and sort out what i can wear to school and what i cant wear to school.i can't be wearing dresses everytime i go to school kan.so i want to search for my tops and wear with my jeans.also, it will be much easier to find my clothes to wear each day.
then,im going to set aside my stationery.im not excited or feeling "kanchiong".i just want to be prepared for school.that's all.

yes i ALMOST got what i wanted as far as im concerned.ive talked to him,gave him three days.and today is the third day.ive checked and i texted again.im just waiting for the final outcome.thus,im happy about it.

by the way,ive typed out the story,what actually happened and the messages.saved it as draft.silence for now is golden. :)

THREE DAYS GRACE PERIOD! IT STARTED ON 8TH FEBRUARY 2010.

im not blogging about the departure of amalina cause i woke up to a nightmare about it.in the dream,i was crying on the phone and she was also crying too.enough about it. i will talk about it when im feeling slightly better.

anyways,im going to shut my mouth.and mind my own business like how i have been doing all this while.
thus if i need to tell the truth of how i knew about certain things,then i will tell you.OR if you want to know,then i will tell you.
no, someone else did not tell me about it.i was the one involved since i was approached for help.i didn't go around looking to know about you,he came asking me for assistance.the person you trusted your life with is the one asking me for a favour.im saying till here only for NOW.

so if you terasa and want to know,then ask me okay?Or better still,blog about it.


ohhhh before i forget,birthday dinner should be next week kan?i wanna eat at highlanders! :)

pian escobar decided to get me PARAMORE TICKETS.not only that he is buying for haris as well.hurhurhur!!
ITS THE STANDING PEN!!!im actually clueless as to why in the world you bought 111 bucks per ticket for someone whom he just met,nonetheless thank you for the presents.7th march here we come!!!
since haris was working and everyone is busy,i went to collect my puma loafers sponsored by kakak aku!! hurhur.
thank you very nice.i love it!!

after that,i bus-ed to bedok to meet een at his house.it was nice,slacking,eating and gossiping with him about everything.as usual,it was block jo! there were hafiz,yed,hadi,hafiz and haris.with them around,silly games and forfeits were given out.it was one fun night.oh gosh,how time flew.i knew them even before i got attached to haris and im glad that im still in good terms with them boys! sayang korang!
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saturday!
after going to teach at bukit batok,i went to meet sya and aishah to do ama's getaway gift.we chilled at the same block,cutting pictures and drawing.

i quickly rushed home to shower and get change to hit the club since dian asked me out to party for my belated birthday.i was surprised that dian and her lil sis,amirah wanted to go supperclub.thus,kakak and i changed,picked them up and headed down.

bad news after waiting about 15minutes,club too packed(maybe cause we went about 12plus already) thus we decided to hit REBEL.remind again the next time NOT to go there! music and crowd merepek meraban.

anyways,im proud to say everyone had CLEAN GOOD FUN!
im loving going out with my cousins and sister for girls night out!!:)






yes this boy at the top is pian escobar.he bought the two tickets for me.thank you very nice hor!

i slept at about 5am and woke up at 10plus in the morning.LATE for dikir putri shooting!! dikir putri on suria at 8.30pm on tuesday night.entah aku muncul di tv or not.hahaha

sunday,i met my nira babies at taman warisan at about 12plus.kate star karat mesti lambat. "i come late and make it up by leaving early." hurhur.
i was at first skeptical with the combination of putri with nira but IM SO GLAD WE DID IT!!
crash course of learning the "whole" set less than an hour was fun and refreshing.not only that,even though they have been playing dikir for quite some time and most of them already are married with kids too,they were still GEREK to hang out with.senang cakap lepak!



mak dier layla marley,aku suker sesangat.her voice like serak2 basah and i just like her.you know the feeling when kau tengok orang then tibe2 macam you realise that you like "berkenan".ar tu feeling.....hahha.and her son is hilmi.very cute.kecik2 da "terpikat" with the rebana and anak.



alhamdullilah to a good start in 2010! thank YOU!

im waiting patiently for them to confront the person.im relieved that they already knew what was happening around them and us.im also glad that they realised all this happened due to one thing only.thank you very much again.


good things happen to good people.

today is our 29th monthasary!
"He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is the best for you.
— Bob Marley"
IM STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU.always and forever.

we are not celebrating cause firstly,we rarely celebrate monthasaries and we are low in cash to spend since we are saving funds with school loans and with him trying to save up.and paying insurance,roadtax and many2 more.

i have something up my sleeve for haris' bday.please take note my party people.i will update you about it.no we are not going to club cause his 21st birthday will be bigger and better.take note!!
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*anyways,bloggers should be responsible when they write and especially be aware that they are accountable for whatever they post up.so you better watch out!last but not least,i had said this once before.
while you are busy looking into others' dirty lingerie,you might forget yours.
and i guess someone found them and gave it to me.
:) GOSSIPS OUT!

thank you bb for hearing me out and informing them of this."biar kita berdiam diri,itu tidak bermakna kita kalah.itu menunjukkan kita berfikir sebelum membuat tindakan."
i have learnt to think before i do things and sometimes, consulting the elders.being 23,it means i have to be more matured.
and another thing,"If someone were to harm my family,a friend or someone I love, I would eat them. I might go to jail for five hundred years but I would eat them."
– Johnny Depp

with dila syg!


sebelom siap boleh la bergaya with shades!



with mel and kyn!



by the way,the karut is wiwik julaiha.kak ju is the singer for the soundtrack of RINDU RAUDAH.a malay story on suria during hari raya haji.anyways, if you watch mega perdana 2000 on tv,you should have seen her then as a karut too!!



i came at exactly 1pm at nee soon cc.we did a couple of times the whole set without and with the baju.at about 4pm,we were busy getting ready with the hair and makeup.
reporting time was at 6.30pm.

all was great up till the show ended.
while waiting for the results,i sat beside mel and just chatted with her to guess who will win what for each category.
tempat ketiga category wanita:dang anum.
i looked at her and we both agreed that they have one of the best awok2 we have seen in Piala Seni 2009.
tempat kedua category wanita:wahana deksu
upon hearing this,mel said endang.i said dwi durrah.that was able to clinch first place.

when the MC announced SRIKANDI,we looked at each other and speechless and jumped for joy!!!

tak pernah naik stage to receive a prize for dikir barat so macam kekok and malu at the same time.all of us teared because it was worth the scoldings,the naggings and late night training sessions.

thank you for letting us three nirapons to play along side you girls!

i cant wait for training with nira!!!

artist pun nak amek gambar with us you know!!
that one is ahli fiqir lor if you don't know by now!

i knew the gfs would plan a surprise for me as in getting a cake and singing the song to me before midnight 30th. especially since last year was the surprise already for me to have a bbq pit for my birthday without me knowing.anywhos...

we were under aidil's block and waiting for him to load his speakers,boxes and stuffs to bring over to the chalet.
i knew they had something up their sleeves when aidil was taking forever to do packing.

takpe since aku tahu ade cake,aku sabar.
so they came from behind with oreo cheesecake that MEYA had made for me with candles!! all 23 candles!!!:)
then amalina gave me the birthday card and i read it aloud. it was cute...

on the envelope:"kepada kawan kita yang paling pendek dan paling tua antara kita semua!! Hahaha Hazirah! HAPPY BIRTHDAY XOXO"

in the card.
"dearest ira happy 23rd,gf! all gf us have been friends,believe it or not,10 freaking years & on this day, we want to wish you nothing but all the best.all the love,happiness & health in the whole world! we love you & hopefully we'll be friends for many,many more years! so we can celebrate each other's bday for like forever & ever.
haha.we love you much!
xoxo
the zhonghua girlfriends!
mwah! we hope you love the gift!"

so i was touched and they all commented about my expressionless face.i told them im overwhelmed BUT im waiting for the gift.
so i was told to wear this ORBIT NAK MAMPOS shades,closed my eyes(i dont know whats th pt of wearing shades.but wth,i want my gift so i just followed their instructions),hands out.
amalina placed the gift on my hands.i opened my eyes and saw a neatly wrapped present infront of me.
so i was thinking of kotak kecik.mesti keychain.mug of our faces.rantai.bracelet.earrings.and the list goes on.
sooooo i opened one side of the wrapping.when i saw JUST ONE SIDE of the black box,i was literally screaming and shrieking.I KNEW IT!!!! it was the baby g watch!!! aku da macam tak betol.rocking back and forth.crying and crying.and frantically,tore the wrapping and opened the box!!!!



the story of how much i wanted to watch came when we were shopping for ama's stuffs for aussie at mustafa.i just went to look at the baby g display and pointed about 1 minute to haris and ama."bb,i nak watch nie for bday i tau.takya beli hp.i nak nie!"

and that was it!
earlier that day,i was talking to abang syawal who called me to wish me.thus i told him to share with abang taj and kak hani for my baby g watch.syasya talked to me about the gift i wanted abang2 aku to buy..
something like this...
sya:"kau suruh abang2 belikan kau jam baby g?
me:"ya.yang pink screen.putih watch.ade couple nye lagi.pasal haris nak belikan hp.so dorang belikan jam la."
sya:"asal tak mintak lebih mahal.like iphone,itouch ke.."
me:"im not into iphone la..aku tak suke."
sya:"nak beli sepasang ngan aku?okay tak?"
me:"okay jugak i dont mind."

that phonecall & conversation were on the way to aidil's house.

macam mane aku tak ngangis.tak sangke my gfs remembered it and bought it for me!

once meya uploads the video and pictures,i will post it here okay!



my bff gave me a nice cute card when she picked me up at the tuition's place with apis.
with a cute lil A keychain and a yellow rose from minitoons! she got the same keychain but hers is S


thaqif my lil brother bought me a RED puma slippers!thank you very much.unexpected as well.when i came home from the PID 2010,he asked if the slippers fitted me.then i realised i got a present!!thank you!!

now waiting for haris present of a handphone.entah ape hp tah dier nak beli.
then kakak,abang2 and my mom's presents!!
kakak,i want loafers!!!
abang2,any presents will do.money also can.hehehe..
i think mama doesnt need to buy me anything.she has given more than i can ever wish for.:)


thank you people!!!
and then im waiting for your present haris!!

ALHAMDULLILAH.
Tomorrow mama will be paying 8.5k for me on the first installment.thank you very much.yes,im going to repay her every month.i can't just use her hard-earned savings and not pay back kan.
Then,come end of february,mendaki will approve my loan.
and then,applying for citibank loan for the rest of the payments.

im relieved and thankful that the first payment is going to be done tomorrow.

alhamdullilah again for two more tuition assignments.
now im already teaching adam & safura.
next will be another kid for malay.
and the next will be two kids for ems 4NT and P6.
last but not least,hida whom i made a promise to start teaching when my school starts.

so now the schedule is pack already from next week onwards.
mon and wed - 4pm-9pm
tues & thurs - 5pm-9.30pm
friday would be hida's day.
free on saturday and sunday as usual.i love to keep my weekends free so i can chill at home.

however this will only last till 22nd february 2010.i will check with the timetable once it is out and accomodate to the timings of my school.

ALHAMDULLILAH.


amalina omar,i need pictures from the chalet.syasya pictures please!!

fridays-sundays were spent with lots of love.
from the chalet.then trainings and finally the PID 2010.
alhamdullilah for the win!
SRIKANDI TIARA WIDJAYA!!!
i will talk about it later after i blog about the farewell chalet.

for now i gotta go for tuition lessons and then to meet mama and cik linda for mendaki!

below.that were photos from last year birthday surprise from the gfs and jokers with my siblings too.








during training,naqiah and faathimah fakruddin bought me a cake.though it was a simple one,i was touched.
the story was...i was concentrating on ragams and the song.trying to get the MATANG part right.then out of nowhere,faat came with the cake singing the birthday song.sumpah aku tak tahu tu kek hamba yang punya.i also joined in singing the song and looking around for the person la.
that's when faat came to me and said my name!
HAHAHAHA.MUKE AKU PRICELESS.
THANK YOU!!


THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR THE WISHES AND EVERYTHING BABES AND DUDES!!
im so blessed with my family & friends.my girls from zhss,jokers boys,the nira babies,the SF clan,the "macam biase" clan.and the whole lot of other friends.
THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN.


a year older,a year wiser.i donot wish to repeat my mistakes.yes i believe that i lead a life of no regrets but lessons learnt.im thankful for where i am today to everyone that has played either a big or small part in my life.be it my lovelies or my haters.thank you for making me who i am today.

this year i wish to be able to pass with good grades from SCU and also to build on with my friendships that i already had with my gfs and bfs.
to make wiser choices,to be more sensible.to think before i speak.and to do more instead of just talking.

im saving up for school,for a new handphone that i want (not sure which model yet.hurhur) new loafers,more dresses and a new watch!!(i know haris bought me that 200 dollars puma watch,which he now calls it POWER RANGER WATCH cause it can no longer tells time or day.i messed up the touchscreen system of the watch)
happy birthday to me!

have a good weekend people!

WILL BE AWAY FOR THIS WEEK.
WILL BE BUSY WITH TRAININGS FOR COMPETITION.
WILL BE BUSY WITH TUITIONS & CHALET.

WILL BE BACK SOON!!

have a good week people!!

i cant seem to sleep.i already turned off my lappie thrice,trying hard to close my eyes and sleep but my eyes aren't tired at all.my brain is still okay.just my body,need sleep!

ive tried playing my fishville.wonderful 4 tanks full of fish! each tank is decorated with a theme on its own. the first one is a holiday and luminous theme.with gingerbreadman,christmas tree and a gingerbread house too! the second is Polynesian theme. the the third is a zen theme with the flora and the architectual of the things in the tank.the last but not least tank is 'by the beach' theme.see the pictures already below.

tank 1


tank 2


tank 3


tank 4

by the way the fishes are small cause i just sold the matured ones so to gain XP then i can go up to a higher level.so these fishes may take some time to grow thus the growing time range from 3 minutes to 3 or 4days to grow into stage one fish.

anyways,i still can't seem to sleep thus i tried playing PONZI on fb.its like you are managing a company and starting from scratch.cool jugak la kan.but i still adore my fishville,been playing almost everyday now.mestilah kan budak sekolah belom bukak.cuberrrr if sekolah da bukak,tuition da full blast,agak2 ade time ke tak tu..hahahaha!!

haris just texted me from work.im glad we are on our honeymoon period again.hardly any fights and we are like dating again.best tau!
this coming september will be our 3rd year anniversary.alhamdullilah syukur.
seriously,after 2 years,ive changed into a good little girl i was once before.

for example,i realised i shouldn't be pillioning anyone (not that i do it before to the other guys la kan.except for the ones he allows like my close friends of hisham/khalid.) he doesn't like it and i also don't allow him to pillion any girls at all.yes im strict likethat.
or like still having crushes with old school mates.
or telling my bf that "may the best man wins".
or like telling him lies.
these are all examples,but ive not done this la before.if terasa,im sorry just generalisations on my part here.

ive learnt to appreciate him a little better and im still learning here.
i know i won't do anything stupid to jeopardise what we already have now. ily.



(too free at 3am in the morning.this was what i did.just collate some pictures together and now those two are on my wallpaper.hurhur.

haris and azira are sitting on a tree.K I S S I N G.first come love,then comes marriage then comes a baby in a baby's carriage.

HAHAHAHAH!! da pagi2 buta belom tidur dari semalam so pardon my level of kegilaan.

oh yesssss!! before i forget,i bumped into siti nurmunyanti.those who were from now defunct PEIXIN PRIMARY SCHOOL,this girl was never in my class but we were close like hell up till secondary 2 and then we lost contact.i met her while i was putting back the percussions at the CC and i saw this familiar face.
she updated me with her new number.looks like gang jahat BBN dulu kite semua da kahwin,nak kahwin or da ada anak.left me and her.yatie doesn't know about the rest though.sekarang member da jadi minah motor KR.

enough about that.later im going for tuition and then around 7pm,i have made an appointment with MR Khaw Boon Wan.it's rather personal for now about this.no im not having health problems even though he is or health minister, if you don't already know.

i miss you bff.get well soon and i see you after your papers.i know you can do it!mwah.

have a good monday people.chase those blues away!

without syasya,suriani and ikha.i know for sure we will have ZHSS picture at amalina's chalet.please bawak camera!! aku nak frame gambar kite together!!!

im not going update about yesterday fantastic saturday out with the gang of gfs yet.
i want to say why i ditched plans.

first and foremost,i didn't want to go just for the sake of going.i have to go cause of the birthday girl whom i just known?and she didn't even invite me in the first place.

secondly,why should i pretend nothing happened and everything is a-okay just to go and put everything aside? we should actually meet up and talk things through.
friendships are also relationships,thus when we have issues,we talk it out and not just brush it under the carpet.it will just get worst.

thirdly,if i were to go,would i have fun pretending?im not a fan of pretending.never had and never will.so why should i tear down my principle of speaking my mind just for this night?are you THAT special? sorry no offence. i don't do it for haris of my other friends either.

when i speak my mind to you,it means i care enough to let you the truth.so if i hurt you unintentionally,then you should be aware that im your friend still.if i don't say anything back to you,means i don't bother.simple as that.

next,why i changed my mind last minute.i had a dream.mostly my dreams are just blurred visions and i won't remember most of it.i realised my dreams could tell me things ever since i dreamt about SF,accidents and what would happen.and these events confirmed my instincts that sometimes my dreams talk to me.(weird but true)
that night,i dreamt about you telling me your USED TO BE BESTGFS secrets. and in that same dream,i was looking from a third prespective.i wasn't in MY body.(Bear with me the dream nonsense here.) i was out of my body,looking at my body and you talking away. and when i woke up,i could remember most of it and i pondered on.

so now you have misunderstandings with them,you told me secrets.their darkest secrets to me.things that i didn't know about to me.thus if i ever fallout on you,WOULD YOU DO THE SAME TOO? would you tell on me?
im being skeptical here.no im not assuming,im just cross-referencing with how you handled your previous gfs.
for me,i don't kiss and tell.

lastly,i still consider you my friend.not my gf just yet.
im sorry but i have to do this.i don't want to be stuck in a frienship where i don't trust you or myself to tell you my secrets.
i want THIS to work hence i want to take one step at a time.thus,TIME WILL ONLY TELL.
with this,i just hope you will change how you handle your friends.not just this time but everytime.when you encounter a problem/misunderstanding,clear it out of your system and talk to them.let's say you don't like a particular person,that doesn't mean your other bestfriends can't hang out with her/him.GET IT?

and please don't be paranoid about friends.you can't control your friends and need to know everything to them.the thing you need to know is that your friends have your back,and you have theirs too.friends always give you heartaches,trust me.with the 6gfs i had for 10 years already,i have too many heartaches to last me a lifetime BUT i see the good in them cause i know the good times will last me for lifetimes to come.

all in all,i still love you the same.i still want the best for you.the best for US.i just hope you change :)

yours truly,
hazirah.
p.s:if you didn't mean anything to you,i wouldn't dedicate a whole post to you.



"Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love
but that doesn’t mean you love them any less.
Sometimes it even makes you love them more."

tuition was still great.i love them kids,safura and adam.comes february, i will have 2 more olevel kids under me,Siva and Hida.He is currently and retaking his olevels,so im helping out with revision of english and emaths.whilst hida is with amaths and science.great! im happy that tuition has been lovely and coming in to me just like i wished.with 4 of these kids,i will be getting about nearly 1k.waitttt 960 dollars per month.alhamdullilah.i will not stop at 4 kids,im currently still open for more kids.siapa2 ada contact2/assignments let me know okay! i give you one time of commission 50%!!!

anyways, haris has signed on the dotted lines and he is waiting for his deployment which will fall on my birthday.i just hope he gets whatever he requested for.insya'allah.

training was okay.setakat ubatkan rindu kat main.it wasn't as fun as i used to feel.in my humble opinion that is.nevermind that,yang penting,aku da janji.so promise is still a promise kan.more it's at tumblr/lj.i can't really say much here since this is more readable and known to others.

tomorrow would be meeting yana later for izzah's 21st.honestly,i donot know if i should go.is she still asking me cause of the sake of a companion?or does she still wants me to go on a sincere basis? entahla.furthermore,i will have my kak sidah's chalet at costa too.im still contemplating.

after 1030pm,that's when im meeting a whole of people.
meya,ahn,shafa,ama,ain,hasrom,kakak and ALIFF!
oh gawd i miss you dude! the last time we met and chilled was during the fasting month kan?charcos!!and geylang!!!

you must have so many gossips to update me with!
i bet haris and ama miss you too!! for amalina,it's been about,hmmmm, a year already since you guys met?last 2 years KL trip remember?this is a picture we had at the raggae bar kan...



nvm its okay,we shall meet you later okay for supper and talk cock!

so supper later sounds so good and tempting.im soooo looking forward to wear my dress,flip flops out tonight.

have a good weekend people!!!


“I think if I’ve learned anything about friendship, it’s to hang in, stay connected, fight for them, and let them fight for you. Don’t walk away, don’t be distracted, don’t be too busy or tired, don’t take them for granted. Friends are part of the glue that holds life and faith together.Powerful stuff.”

when you asked me for help,i did what i could and called them up.i asked even though it isn't my problem,it wasn't my thing.

i just have to this about the culprit.what the fuck are you trying to do?where the hell has your brains run off to?you think by telling exaggerated stories will get you off the hook? please,i know the victim well enough to know who's being PINOCCHIO here. i suggest you tell the whole story,the real actual facts.if you dig a hole to cover up,you end up with a deeper hole sooner than you realise and people aren't that stupid to trust and take your every word seriously.eventually,people might not believe you anymore.and it just shows to the rest that whatever you try to deny about yourself,is true.aren't you abit ashamed about this?
kalau da mentally unstable,memang la perangai gini.SS.
hence,now people will know who has been the twofaced mtf and who has been the double-tongue snake all this while.and i can clear my name :)

takpe.i promised you that i won't mention anything about the whole fiasco about it here.since i need to get it off my chest,i can't wait for saturday to tell the girls about it.

and if you think im talking about you,then good.please change.how old are you again?
KATA DULANG PAKU SERPIH,
CAKAP ORANG DIA YANG LEBIH,

i know my wedding will only take place 5 years later when im about 27/28 since i want to be financially stable with savings in the bank when i get hitch!

anyways this entry you guys dont have to read if you don't want to.
it just a fairy tale that will happen some day.insya'allah.for now,this is what i want.



the solemnisation place would be at a mosque.i used to tell haris many2 times even after we went KL that i want to my solemnisation to take place at the Putrajaya Mosque.i fell in love with that mosque when i went with my JC mates back in the IMMERSION PROGRAM DAYS.

now when i think about it logically,i can't do it there,right?menyusahkan orang semua.so i shall consider singapore's mosques.


then i would want a simple dinner reception.Aloha Changi Resort, Changi Cottage Bungalow.for now,that's the place i want to have it there.
it would be a combined venue of family,relatives and close friends.
i want it to be as intimate as possible.cause i want to be there all the way and see everyone of his side and mine too.

since haris said he wants to do the whole 'fetching the bride' thingy,he would still fetch me from his house with the convoys of people.
no i do not want any designs in my weddings.nak ikot escort boleh.no helmet designs totally.i actually wish that my convoy will consist of trailer trucks or lorries.or jeeps.
hahahah.i love my vehicles baby.
then from my house,to the venue of the dinner.
dinner dishes would be kebabs.and nasi minyak with all the dishes.deserts of all sorts.and drinks of different flavours and hot tea.hot coffee.the kids will have cotton candy as their souvenirs. the adults will get memorabilia of the wedding.not sure yet about that actually.

it would start in the evening when the sun sets.with performances of dance,dikir and whatnots every now and then.
no kompang.can i have bangra?hurhur.

oh RSVP is a must with this dinner.people need to tell me the number of people coming.

the colour is still depending cause im fickle minded likethat.
white.scarlet red.gold.turqouise and so on.
the decorations not sure.

so that's all that ive talked to haris about.hahah.daydreaming once in awhile isn't bad right.and a girl can never be wrong if she wants to have a fairytale wedding with the man she loves.haris.

:)

it was planned to meet at ICA at 10plus am.well,you should know that im not a morning person thus,haris volunteered to fetch me under my block as usual at about 11am.

the picture i took for my IC looked great but it showed me that ive gained weight with my chubby face.nvm that.i still love the pictures anyways.
for lunch we went to beach road since it's near.surprisingly i wasnt wanting soup tulang and instead ordered MUI FAN DAGING.well,im a meat lover kan.you guys know or not what's mui fan?okay let me explain.heard of horfun?well,the gravy is still the same just this time,you eat it with rice and not kway teow.sedap,should try la people.from now on,if i don't know what to eat,i will order mui fan and im craving for it now.padehal baru semalam makan.talk about being a clan of budak gumuk!!


it was drizzling when we rode off to millenia tower.on the way,we were mostly drenched since it got heavier by the minute.and the silly thing was we went the wrong way and ended up,turning around CHIJMES twice.when i reminisced about yesterday,i smiled cause we were practically laughing about it.

after drying up at the restrooms,we went ahead to meet Jonathon at about 2.30pm.i realised i was going to be late for tuition thus,i postphoned it to friday afternoon.after discussing the bank loan,we went to marina square.IT WAS FREAKING EMPTY.macam ghost town.
probably because everyone is either working or schooling.it was monday at 3plus in the afternoon.what was i expecting kan.
i wanted to watch AVATOR ages ago so i told haris that it was a good time to catch it since it was MONDAY!
we went ahead and booked at 6.15pm.in the meantime,we were going to shop!yeay! i was happy that we are going shopping after so long of being deprived of it.
haris bought new REEF slippers.it is definitely an investment when you pay 50bucks for slippers.good grip for riding and water resistant.
haris wanted to buy for me the puma slipons or loafers.but they were not having my sizeit's always difficult buying shoes with brands like puma,nike,adidas,roxy and so on.
my shoes hardly fit me right.always alil loose but ive adapted to it and now im more comfortable wearing a 6 then a 5.truth is,im a size 5.
while entering the third shop,i wanted to eat.
we went ahead to pastamania at suntec since i wanted to meet ina after her messy breakup with sya.finally after soooo long,i got to eat my linguine prawn aglio extra spicy! sedap!!we talked about what actually fell apart and how things were.it was good seeing her and just talking to her.it doesn't mean sya broke up with her,i can't meet her.afterall no one controls who i want to stay friends with.

yank punya yank away,lupe time.it was close to 6pm and we were walking very fast to the theatres.thank god belom start.it was a good movie,made me teared a few times and the whole movie was so magical.wonder what it is really like if our world would be that bright and luminous at night.

he sent me to my aunt's place to talk about the loans and off to home sweet home.

on the bike,he asked whether i was having a good time the entire day and whether i was happy.i said YES.
finally we went out just the two of us.we didnot get mad at each other.we weren't even disagreeing about anything.it was as if we were dating again.i love our dates like this.the ones i go out with him.just him.i get to just talk with him about nothing and everything.

and at nearly 4am,thaqif brought home mega prosperity burger from work.i love civic's prosperity burgers.more sauce,more onions.i donot even have to ask.:)

an advance good night!!

i want to update about my lovely date with haris and the loans battle on monday.
but i got to do this now.
i want to rant.i promise to update about my day out with harisexy.just the two of us.


da makin merepek perangai.
firstly,why did you involve the other two,who hadn't done anything to harm you?all they did was to be there for you whenever you needed them.
bawah block before or after tuition.when you had problems,weren't they there?many countless times.

im sooo thankful my gfs don't do this to me everytime we fight.
we might fight like bitches with the maki hamun but i know we all don't mean it at all and we move beyond that point cause we treasure our goddamn friendships more than petty misunderstandings.

no im not talking about the whole clan.im just talking about the girl with the bangs and the boy with the mole.

let me repeat again.who wasn't made the victim here?isn't it all of us?everyone in this thing called FRIENDSHIP definitely experienced pain,hurt,betrayal and many more at some point. and once you come to that point,are you going to throw away everything?
come on.making new friends takes a lot of guts and risks.you let the person in,you trust them.BOOMS! they hurt you and vice versa.then what,delete ar ape lagi?oh bukan gitu! you take a breather and then come back.put it all behind and continue being friends.

for example,on my part.how many times i said i don't want to meet this nps girl?so many times after we had fights and argument but after that,tak ke aku jumpe dier balik and move over the whole pettyness and be friends again?
betol tak miss yishun?
let me say this again.i forgive too easily.kakak aku can vouch on that.and i take that not as a weakness here but as a strength that i believe everyone makes mistakes.

readers,please don't take my emotional entries seriously.
i will always always rant about everything since i can't let it out verbally,i let it out here.

when i said im bidding goodbye,you should jollywell know that i can't.i don't do well with farewells.cause i rarely know how to let go.

i just want out.just for this month.
i got too much to handle.i got too little time.
let tell you what's on my plate now.tuition everyweekday.training sessions.mendaki meetups.banks meetups.family days.AMALINA DAYS(CAUSE SHE IS LEAVING ME FOR THREE YEARS!!) SO you think i can handle this now?NO.

tu je aku nak cakap.
aku da penat nak tidur.fishes di fb pun sudah aku feed sampai montel macam aku.

i feel so elated about monday's date with love.mwah!!

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