prawning so much for the planning.i wanted to go prawning again but this time i wanted to try at bishan.after much APEC saga,we decided to meet the BL boys.
it was good lepaking at macs,teh tarik and lastly at the void deck.playing dai dee. and catching up with each other.khalid's fwb or the girl i called NYONYA has a decent name,nia.she is nice but i don't want to judge her as it was my first official lepaking session with her.it was good even though it was raining so we had to cancel our plan to ride to changi haunted place.no it's not OCH or some regular hunt.im not sure of the name,it's further up than the CHANGI CHAPEL.

now im at home.after eating nasi daging penyet,i continued to sleep with the cold weather snuggling infront of the tv.
haris wanted to catch POKER KING at 5.25pm at amk but i fell asleep and woke up at 4pm,at that time he was still at home.
since im hungry and it's raining,haris should be in the bus now, coming over here.and i should get ready.

i just wonder why people are happy at people's miseries.you know it sucks when it happens to you.you know how it hurts you.for me,personally,it's okay that i dislike the person but i won't laugh and be overjoyed when i hear their bad news.it's SADISTIC.

oh and another thing,i don't really like the "married","engaged" or "widowed" status that users are taking it for granted at fb.
in my humble opinion,i thought fb is a networking outlet so when you published this kinda things,it might seem a lil childish.in my opinion la.
and i know there are people who share the exact sentiments and those who disagree with it.
doesn't mean we all have to agree with each other kan.

im happier now.thank you to all the support from the girls and them boys.=)
thank you sooooo much.

amalina omar,i was with him when he was messaging you about that something.hahaha.

and to you whole lot of guys and girls,i don't care what have been speculating,what you heard or what you've said.
bottomline is eventhough i can stand on my own, im glad ive friends that truly support me in this.so carry on la with what you are doing.
nanti same jugak,lama2 da penat,dia stop jugak kan.

2007

after what happened on wednesday partying session,haris did not answer my phonecalls or my text messages.so i called him for the last time at 11plus.

we talked.we argued.i cried.he fought for us.i could see that.
so we talked about us dating that time.about me not wanting to have a status with him.about him wanting US back together.
about the changes.

and especially about trust.

talked till 5am in the morning.with one hand on the phone.the other supporting my head.lying down on the sofa.just talking and laughing.it was good.oh goddd,i missed all that.

hopefully,being back with him and with the changes that we agreed on,this time it will be a better journey making US stronger.insya'allah.we are trying again,risking everything again.but it is all damn worth it.

040907

"When you love someone, you’ve got to trust them. There’s no other way. You’ve got to give them the key to everything that’s yours. Otherwise, what’s the point?"
- ROBERT DE NIRO

i don't know what's the hell wrong with us.or rather me.
at first when i wanted a breakup even though ive hurt him, he didnot want it so i suggested a breakup but trying back together thing.
then after awhile,he asked me to give him space.i gave him all the space he needed.
after 3 weeks,i became restless.i literally begged for him to come back.he didnot want it at first.after 5 hours of talking,he gave US a month.a month to go dating and work it out as one unit.
before that month ended,he wanted US to be back.this was about 2 weeks back.i did not want US back.
on last tuesday,he asked me again.i said i didnot know.
i thought hard about it.and sat quietly,while looking at him.
finally said that we could make it work.cause i know that we are perfect for each other.opposites but similar.
both of us cleared up some issues.some aje.not all la.tipu la if i say talk2 until 2am can clear all issues kan.

especially when many people like lasalleboi,syedlove,syasyabff,amabb,aisyabb and especially2 richboi,trust and believe that im an amazing girl and i am capable of being that.if they trust i could do the right thing,i can definitely do it.these people know me inside out.they have been with me ever since i was 13/16/19.

i will stop being an asshole,a heartbreaker,a playa.i wouldn't want to regret losing the best guy.ive said this many many times.a gazillion times.and i always failed to do it right.insya'allah.
however,this past month plus ive done it good.ive done it well.i stayed within my boundaries.ive stayed within my limits.

not that a leopard cannot change its spots.it just doesn't want to.

and forget the saying "once a playa,always a playa".and let's start "there is a good girl in all of us.you just have to try."

he knows and never doubts the love i have for him.all he wants now is ME.to be back with him.

sunday's competition was great.a clean set even though our first time.im proud to be a nira always.=)sayang korangs semua nie termasuk orang2 yang pernah tolong kite dan tak lupe pengasas2 kita.




monday,i went to meet dayah and syedlove and some other pple at tampines and off to eat at simpang.kau imagine i just found out about prata goreng!!sedap jugak.should try la.tapi personally for me,kene pedas baru OMMMPH!

on tuesday,i went to meet syedlove and alep.
memang macam hari2 jumpe dier tapi takpe.bestfriends mah..
lepak-ed and then met up with haris.he treated me to late lunch and dinner at ljs.sedap seh.thank you richboi.he sent me home at about 2plus 3am.
but i decided to meet up with syedlove and them boys and ended back home at 2.30pm the next day.so i slept my wednesday throughout and went to meet up with nurul and siddiq at 11pm to go obar with her friends.and some guy friends.i can't exactly mention who la...it was indeed a good night.

i finally opened up to him.no not haris sidik,by the way just to make things clear,he knew i was going with them.
i felt good opening up and clearing up the air.i wanted to tell him things long time ago and i finally did it while i was still tipsy.i guess the alcohol gave me the push i needed.=)

thanks to you.my jc-lasalle friend.i knew we are good but i never knew that we are this tight.it's not that i wouldn't want to be with you then or now,i don't want me to hurt you and then we are no longer friends.i treasure you much more than that to risk it all.
to others,im azirahart.but to you still,im ira sanchez.=)

i will update about PSD4 and monday's jalan2 cari makan with syedlove,dayah,firman,taufiq and myra.

but for now,
im reminded of you when i saw this picture.

i used to pull you closer.
i used to pull you by your tshirt.just for a kiss.
and you used to tell me..."i suke a girl that kiss me first for no reason." and "u are the first one seh..."

you never appreciated me.not even as a friend.
looks can get you so far,but what's inside that matters.
i still believe that you are a nice person.prove me right.


well,ain't no more.

i kinda miss you.

anyways,i need to meet the girls again!i miss you girls.

oh.i miss amirul too.

back to my mundane life.=( sedih sesangat.
please ask me out.im free!!!

hatetagger GAAL


hatetagger IRA


as you can see,it's most probably a girl,seeing her nick of gaal and ira and the way she tagged.very girly la kan.
not only that,she is stealing someone's internet connection.it's illegal.
how would i know?well,she is around the same area but using different ISP(INTERNET SERVICE PROVIDER).


this is a warning to everyone.
i donot tolerate spammers or hatetaggers.
think before you do anything.
this is just step 1.

in singapore,NO ONE GETS AWAY SCOT FREE
it's an offence,you know.
don't let me track you down.
be careful with who you are messing with.=)

*click to enlarge picture.*

aishah's birthday party 08

syasya bday 09

my awesome 09.

ama's 09

our jumpshots at bawah block.


we are planning for something grand this coming december or hopefully january.
we have yet to celebrate aishah's and yaya's birthday and not forgetting sya's too.
hence,we decided it would be great to have 3 birthday bash at one go.
we are thinking of booking some nice hotels that will cater to us especially the design and outlook of the room.that's important lor.

3days and 2 nights.that's what we are hoping for.for everyone to be free and there.
first night,it will be us girls.eating.boozing.playing silly games.laughing till our stomachs and faces hurt.ala im not worried about the activities la in the room.pasal even lepak at anywhere,we will still have a great time.girls,remember at macdonalds town?ala yang dier cakap group kite mcm exciting and eavesdropped on our convo.

the 2nd night,ape lagi.we will rock the house down.tak tahu house siape.
still pending.we have always been going to obar for the longest time.cause booze is cheap and it's not like pasar geylang macam dblo or whatnots.
tengok keadaan.
i know we will always come up with some plan.

and sekarang ape tah demam si aidil haswin,mr amalina omar nie.tibe2 ajak ama to ZOUKOUT!!!
HAHAHAHA.i was laughing my ass off sak when i received her excited text.(asal excited?pasal all in caps and ade byk exclamation marks!!)
yes i should be going.ish mane boleh tolak.i would be inviting either haris.if not,siapa2 nak tag pn okayla.
bukan selalu or rather takpernah aidil ajak eh.and can buy number you know this one.

im excited for many things this upcoming weeks and months.
for this sunday bukan excited2 tapi more to having goosebumps.
then hopefully,i get a job next week since offices have been calling me for interviews and i pushed it to next monday.
birthday bashes or if not zoukout,whichever that happens first.
then after that,our 10 years anniversary of friendship on 2nd january.
of course.of course next is my birthday 29th january.tak sabar.
ive been hinting about handphones to a few people already.mana tahu they need time to kumpul duit.
and then the day i don't like is 6th february.im going to "lose" a friend lor for about 3 years.not going to think about that.it makes me sad.

sayang korgs!



pssst!!!!
aku ade tumblr.
im calling it my tupperware.
corny kan.takpe.pada aku cute.hah

i wanted to have thosai at little india since i can't be a brat and whined about it so i settled for SRISUN's.
their butter thosai is not nice.butter tak rase langsung.it tasted as though i order the normal thosai
.after that,i had the sweetest drink of iced tehcino.manis poteng kaki tau kengkawans.

oh i ordered an additional egg prata when i saw afad's reaction eating.nampak selera kan.perangai budak gemok,aku tahu.takpe asal aku happy sudah.

after that,went to training.it was already 7.30pm but only 8 awok2.
entahla.
this should be my last competition.so when i think back of the times i had,i want to smile and say.."that's my nira"





gmbr lain semua at fb.trying to upload at blogger and its being a BIG BITCH.

faat,miza and me were hungry so we decided to go techno BUTTTT bbq wing rice takde so terpakse pergi ke alkadir.makan maggi goreng.tak sedap sangat la.and took the last bus home.
sekarang aku kempunan sushi and seafood.how?

thanks richboi.toiletgirl is happy that you took time off to teman me eat thosai just now.even though we are not together anymore,you still make this little girl happy. i know we will work this out.i have faith in myself.in you.and in us.
it just takes time.
however,if we don't make it back,im happy that you are in my life still.
you are one of the good guys ive known personally.
whatever it is,come what may,you will always be in my hart.
happy 4th anyways! 26th months.

gmbr tkde kene mengena dengan post dibawah.


eh please eh kau.
you deleted my facebook account.
and when i had the new one,you rejected my request.
so you think i bother you don't accept?
tak kempunan la beb.

then tu takpe,aku terima.
tapi asal kacau2 aku kat msn???
kau da tebiat tibe out of the blue cakap "BYE!" aje???


if i did something to offend you,im really sorry.i apologised sincerely from my hart.
but if i did it,please let me know so im aware of my own actions.
tapi kan if you are doing this to piss me off,eh dude it's not funny anymore.

im going to continue to be nice with people like you.maybe then you will realise it sooner or later.insya'allah.
"biar orang buat kite,jangan sesekali buat orang." something my gf amalina told me many times.so im putting it into practice.

honestly,i waited for you the whole day.i was sick.i was not feeling well.i ate two slices of bread at 3pm.
i knew it was raining so you couldn't come down and meet me.but why is it so hard to take the public now?you could do all that when we were dating.you could all that when we were together before you had your bike.

then i found out you were at marsilling with your sister and her finance.it was at 8pm.
all you could say was that you took the car.you used to take the last bus when we chilled at my place.eating and watching tv or movies.and now it mattered whether ryssa was with you.

then when you said you be back late at 12 likethat,i said okay.
i turned down invitations of meetups and supper treats just so to wait for 9 hours and still counting.waited patiently.without being angry or agitated or annonying like i used to.
i don't want you to think i go out and have dinner or late super late dinner with other guyfriends jz cause you can't.i don't want you to think i only look for you when i need something.
padehal aku memang boleh jumpe any of the friends and they will take me to eat anywhere.


i really cant say much.
i can't expect anything.
i shouldn't.i can't.

sekarang aku lapar and sakit,siapa yang sanggup tapau aku makan abeh turun bawah blok makan?

any girl would be lucky to have found the best guy in the world that wants her and loves her for all her past and baggage.
memang dier baik sangat.dier patient sgt.dier murah hati sgt.semua dier.
a guy most girls would kill to be with.no im not kidding.

no i donot want to be selfish.
im not taking things for granted.

maybe the things that happened in my family made me like this.no im not trying to find a reason to cover up my infidelity.honestly no.

i just want to know why im doing this.truth to be told,he is the first of my exbfs that ive cheated behind his back.
not with ruzaini,not with adnan.not amin or with anyone else that mattered.

i grew up thinking of "happily ever after" but after a few years ago,somethings just shattered my belief.i donot believe it cause i don't see it infront of me anymore.i don't see it at all.

it's not that i want to make new GUY friends.i have lots of that last time and even now,i still love making friends.with everyone.
for example,when i go party,i can just chat up with anyone.at anywhere.the smoking corner.the bar.outside the bar.be it man/lady.chinese/malay/indian or matsallehs.all also boleh.im just too peramah sometimes.i should learn to shut up.

that's when it all boils down to taking risks.my banquet manager said before to us."marriage is like putting your one leg into the grave."
maybe im a scaredy cat.yes aku penakut and pengecut paling besar when it comes to all this.

what ama and syasya talked to me yesterday at our port really shooked something in me.i shouldn't be selfish.maybe im ain't ready.they said many things. middle fingers were given to me.that's why i love them sooooo much.aku mcm mane punye sial,they would say it to my face.they don't judge.they listen.they say what they mean.ukily.

i should clear my baggage and my thoughts.my systems.everything.

right now,im just not ready for a relationship.i think.
im just a messed up lil girl now.

i don't know.
i don't care.
the only thing that is important isn't anything else except furthering my studies.

and im not a place to help people cari jodoh.
my own stories are left hanging.im still in bits and pieces.

oh and please don't have list when you are out finding a partner.fair?pretty?sweet?not too thin?always hear your say?
looking for the person you want to love and love you back or finding a model?
be realistic la dude.

other than that,dikir barat competition is this sunday.
i just don't want to screw it up.

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edited at 3.42pm


so i should and want to go to negeri sembilan.
there is a group of people going and im invited.
no im not going with anyone im close with.
ive asked amalina along though.
i think i need to do this.a change in environment.

insya'allah i will be going.

MY FACEBOOK IS HACKED.
SO PLEASE ADD THE NEW ONE.
AND DELETE THE OLD ONE.THANK YOU DARLINGS.

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SAME NAME AZIRA HART.

sometimes it's better not to indulge yourself in rumours or gossips because most of them are ain't true.you waste your time.you waste your effort in finding out.you waste energy.senang cakap "buang current dohhhh!"

however,before you pass a judgement on an individual or even a group,ask yourself a question."is that affecting anyone?"

most of the time,it will affect people and it may tarnish one's reputation or even one's pride and name.

making her a playground never was his idea.i can bet you with my life for that.that's how much i know he loves her.

however,people misused the trust and their rights over her.trying to entice her.trying to see if they can get her.trying their luck.
well,that's wrong.they are not respecting him.

after all this,who will he believe?the people or her?
his love of 3years or the people of years before or recently ones?

it's up to him to decide.
all he has to do is ask her.
ask all of her.
maybe he will know the real story after hearing all of her with an open mind and an unbias heart.
just be prepared that things will change.some of her will side with him and some of her will side with her.and one may leave.

i want to go picnic!
i want to eat butter thosai at tekka.
i want to fly kite.
i want to watch SONGS OF THE SEA.
i want a new handphone.
i need a job!

i got to sleep.good night PEOPLE.

im not sure whether we are back together.im really am lost about the status here.

yesterday,he sent me home after dikir barat training and watched online movies with me.


we ended this lil chillout thingy til 4am.both movies were something like the AMERICAN PIE stuffs.some nudity of pussies and tits everywhere.it was good though that it had a love story backdrop.

when i purposely hinted words like "boyfriend" or incidences of we not being together,he didnot say anything in return.so i guess we are still 2 different people.not a unit now.
so are we back together?
technically no.
maybe we are dating now.
god knows.
but for now,im happy and thankful like this.

i need to siap and get my ass down to bedok to meet dayah and the rest.

we wanted to go jogging or play badminton but i suggested karaoke.
we used to have this idea of karaoke-ing with just two people but we never managed have the time to do it so yesterday we rode to kampung chai chee at 6.30pm.

it was a good three hours "jamming" session.just singing duets,my songs and his songs.

lastly,he dedicated songs titled ME & YOU by LIFEHOUSE and LIPS OF AN ANGEL.
and the last song for the night was ALWAYS BY BON JOVI.

he had no idea where to go after that cause it was a monday night and it was already 9.30pm.i suggested ECP but decided against it.and went ahead to pasir ris.takeaway-ed BK and sat by the beach.
that was one of the awkward-est moments ever.not because i wasn't comfortable being with him.it was as if the boy i knew had become a man.and i just realised it.
he said things that made sense.that was indeed logical.

all i had to say was "if you'd change and i don't change,will you still be with me?"
at first for a few times,he kept saying "i don't know" and "i haven't thought about it".
then when i said :"you just don't love me the same anymore."
he became confused.so i explained what the old haris,the one that i fell in love with,would say. he finally understood my point.
he said of course he would be with me.and he said "i don't love you the same,i love you more".
that made me teared and while we rode off,i hugged him tight and asked."are you going to leave me again?don't leave me."
he just said "takmo kasi i sakit hati lagi."

we had to go his house first to pass soda water to his dad.his dad was having a fever and refused to go to the doctor.and then we stopped at TECC 7eleven to buy menstruation pills.we sat at the roadside and talked.for a long time.about an hour or more.
we always have long good talks by the roadside.something different from all.=)
we discussed miza&khai's scenario.we talked about his sister's engagement.his sister&husband-to-be's plan of buying a house.his plans.my plans.
i was actually glad that there is still OUR PLAN.i thought it had died.

he sent me back home and when i woke up,i received 2 text messages.
one about him reaching home and wanting to play the computer.the other about too many updates on my dear friend. so that's the reason for the update below.
i guess he is feeling jealous and insecure.who could blame him.

i gotta earn his trust back.i just gotta.

Mr football?Mr dikir?Mr silat?Mr hotbod?im not all that.im just me.

that was what his shoutout was.
mr football was.....
mr dikir is ...........
mr silat was.....but wait.i haven't been close with him ever since a few years back.
mr hotbod?ashton! hahaha.no im not sure who this hotbod is.

haris bin sidik.the reason why i blogged a few too many times about my friend is because i can't update about us.i wasn't sure about us.and i do not want some nosey parker to bask in times of anguish and sorrow.
check my eljay la dude!

after all that mr football,mr dikir or whatever it is,i still want my pervert boi.my mr policeman when im naughty.


so please.im going to say this again here officially.ive learnt my lesson.and only time will tell.

pervert boi,i am still in love with you.and i still want to spend my life with you.get married to you and have kids with you.i still want to hold your hand when im old and wrinkly.
i still want to have long talks by the roadside.=)

AZIRA HART.

29 jan.
Pursuing a DEGREE IN EVENTS MANAGEMENT.

i'll write and rant about everything and anything under the stars.some of the entries are basically "on the spot feelings" kinda entries. others are about the mad and hectic adventures i go through.
If i hit onto something, DONT come pointing fingers at me.
This is where I rant.
nothing affects me most.except friends and family.

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